Closure

One of the most challenging concepts for humans and me, in general, is this concept of closure. The idea that all things come to an end for a reason and that there are events that take place or conversations that occur to facilitate closure. One thing that I have learned as a result of COVID-19 is that sometimes you don't always get closure. That was a tough pill for me to swallow.

TCU has been the greatest four years of my life. I met incredible people, I have learned, I landed some fun internships, and have some incredible memories. As a classic TCU fanboy, I was beyond excited for the second half of this semester. I was excited about the last goodbyes with classmates, friends, and teachers. I was excited about my final classes and the last ever final exams. I was excited about the senior sendoff events. I was excited about the closure, but that was taken away.

Does closure indeed exist? Is there always a reason that everything happens? To me, I believe that closure does exist and that everything does happen for a reason. Part of this is faith-based, and part of this is my faith in humanity. I think that we all, as humans, desperately seek comfort in times of unknowing. I have struggled to grasp the reality of never returning to TCU, seeing various people again, and being a "normal" TCU student still. The reality of this pandemic has been tough to grasp.

However, I do think that everything happens for a reason. For years, our society has been built on the idea that success only comes from being "busy" constantly. People are always "busy" and are going from one thing to the next. Although I pray for the health and safety of those infected, I believe that this is a unique opportunity in our lives to reflect and slow down.

Am I happy with where my life is? Am I doing what makes me happy? Am I supporting my local community? Am I staying in touch with friends and family? Am I taking things for granted? Am I complaining too much? Should I read more?

I have found myself trying to understand myself better and reflect on my life thus far. I think one of the most profound things I have noticed is that I need to stop complaining about the little things and not take things for granted. After this time of reflection at home, I have learned that I am truly so blessed and grateful. I have a loving family, incredible friends, and a job lined up after graduation. I attended an incredible school with great professors.

I find myself missing the classroom more and more each day. I never truly realized how much I enjoyed going to class, seeing my professors, and seeing my classmates. Although I may never get that closure that I always expected, I have closure knowing that we all need to be grateful for the little things.

No closure, no problem.